breakup-makeup talks.

it was awkward, hilarious and downright stupid. i swore not to be as irrational as the old me but nope, its still the same old same oh. i’ve been having trouble lately with my boyfriend… its been quite rocky. its my fault. and his too. but more of mine. its been how long? 4 or 5 months i think. and im not used to that… after a few months i get bored and look for other interesting pursuits. bad tiara.

a survey sponsored by a female mag once asked what kind of girfriend am i… i answered ‘im a bad girlfriend’. which is so true. sometimes i wonder why magz puts up with me and my neverending faults. for someone as understanding as him, i still cant help but find something i could hate about him and make a fuss out of it. silly silly me. and because we dont see other much…i kinda went uhm..astray? not the adulterous path…but pretty much leading to that. or at least my friends say so. haha.

this guy and i have been texting each other and even went out once but we were just friends thats all. i have a bf so no more dates, but what the heck it was just a friendly date. we had a score to settle, so to speak. we’re friends. cant girls be friends with their exes?

if magin finds out i have no idea how he would react. well, he claims he’s changed from hotheaded bull to a rational being…but i have doubts. nyahaha. fact is, i was gonna tell him but i never had the chance. we talked a little…then boom. he said something that had me choking up with the names i wanted to call him. bastard was definitely one of them. i intended to break up with him and told him so… good for him he thought of asking me to think about it. to think about us. and i did.

it took a whole night of thinking and searching for the right answer. i decided to keep this relationship. im not sure if this is the ‘right answer’ but i do know that i like magz…and i’ve learned to care for him. so i guess im in for the long haul.i just hope i wont get bored and look for much more interesting pursuits..haha.